*hugs* Thanks.

I'm sure you will suceed.

I'm not getting stuck here. No way stuck with little kids that think they are gangstas

I'm getting out as soon as I get enough money. Which hopefully wont be long as I need to get me a job.

Fork Ninja is your name Amy? sorry I'm guessing of other posts

Yeah, me name is Amy. *Shakes hand* Nice to meetcha

Take those lil kids, chuck um in a classroom and make um care!!!!! We just need people to care...

*huggles Amy*

I've got to say it...and rant.

It's all my fault. It was my idea. That douchecookie (as Andy puts it) pissed me off so bad, all I wanted to do was make him hurt. Not even physically. I didn't care, I just wanted him to fucking hurt. And I knew Megean did too, and I knew something that no one else did. I knew that D really likes Megean, I knew that it would hurt douchecookie. I didn't even stop to think what I was doing to MYSELF, cause all I cared about was wrath. So I told her. I told her how it would fuck douchecookie up. I still hadn't thought about it. Until she was asking D out. Until I heard him say the word. Yes. It would like someone I just hit me with a basball bat. I felt sick... so I ran to the bathroom... my friend Tati followed me in, in just enough time to hear me lose my lunch. Which was embarassing, but it's not like she's never seen me puke before. She got me out of the bathroom and tried to herd out of the school like a sheep, but I looked back. And I saw the way D was looking at her...and the way she was looking at him. And I wish I hadn't.

Nice to meet you too

I was going to put this in What are you thinking. But one thought turned into a little too much.

I dont know if I want to go down to London.

The only reason I wanted to go was to see her. But shes messed me around enough already. Tells me she ocassionally misses me but never really talks. It'd kill me to be down there and not see her. I need to cut her off because it makes everything worse talking to her. I'm lonely enough as it is. I dont need to be messed around. I should of not bothered when I knew she lived in London but I let myself fall a little and then she threw it back in my face. I'm saying this but all I want to do is talk to her and say will you come and meet me. And I have no idea what she'd say or even if she would actually bother.

Stupid me for getting this way by just talking over the internet. I dunno why I did I'm just so lonely and so tired of everything reminding me. She cared for a while and everything was perfect but maybe it hurts a lot more when it gets shattered. I let people mean too much too quickly. I know this and I can write it out so why cant I let go of everything. I thought I had. But then my mom comes in asking if I still want to go to London. I just need to stop myself talking to her and it will be alright.

I know how you feel Kellie *huggles* Something similiar happened last year... only...I never could stop talking to that person.

And another thing about my previous post. I know these things aren't supposed to be a big deal in the long run.. that they're supposed to go away. That I'm too young to fall in love... but I don't believe it now. I am. I have been, in and out, and every time it hurt.

Oh gods, Kayleigh. *superdupersnug* I wish there was something I could do to fix it. More than anything, I do. I just wanna fix everyone's problems. I don't care about me. I love you guys *hug* Kayleigh, I know the very last thing you want to hear is "It's going to be OK", but it is. I'm still working on getting over Brennan. It's really hard to do when you love someone enough.

Kellie, I just wanna give you a hug and find you a lovely mate that'll be with you forever and ever and you'll always always love each other. I'll do it when I find her. Yups.

I want to give all of you hugs, bagels, and an advance copy of Black Symphony (which would be awesome) to make it all better. And anything else I could possibly do to melt these gods awful problems away. They suck ass I know. *hugs everyone*

Kayleigh, I'm in SC lol but I live on the border of NC. I'll call you up next time I get to come up to DC. Since it's close to Maryland.

Well...it's gonna be. I promise. If it's not, I will purchase you a ticket to Denver so you can come punch me in the face for lying to you.

*huggles Kayleigh* Again I've gathered your name off other posts I'm so sorry I wish I could take away the pain of it all. Like Andy said it will be okay eventually it will sort its self out

Awww Andy *huggles* thats so sweet Thats really cheered me up actually I'd bless you but you are all full up I wish I could fix everything for you too.

*hugs Leia* I've never had a bagel

I want to fly over and give you all hugs. Wheres my WT bubble

Bagels are teh awesome! I love chocolate chip ones with cream cheese on them. Mom has to keep me away from bagels at the grocery store.

Aww I want a bagel now. I didnt know they did chocolate chip ones. Next time I'm in Morrisons I'll be getting a bagel then And I will think of you

We'll just have a bagel day. I want a bagel

Yay bagel day.

A National WT bagel day. Would it be National???

More like Interational WT Bagel Day

Thats it Nationals just one country isnt it. Cant say I'm good on geographical anything. I didnt even realise Britain was the whole of Britian I thought it was just England I dont take much notice in stuff like that Like what country I'm in. Oh I sound like a dumbass know haha.

So International WT Bagel Day XD

*hugs* Kellie. Don't dumb yourself down it's ok to not know things.

Ok. So my situation. I'm finally getting into a new relationship. The problem is I still hold vulnerabilities from my last relationship. My ex is the crowned king of assholes. I was with him for a year and a half (on and off). It was perfect bliss in the beginning. Then it went to hell on earth. He had proposed and was saving for the ring. He had me planning the wedding. Then things just turned to shit. He became controlling, mentally abusive, always drunk, and everything became all about sex. I was ready to chuck him out the door and hope it hit him in the ass on the way out when I got dumped. He goes to dragon con when he had no money to go and comes back talking about this great girl. We are still together at the time imagine how I felt. Then two weeks later I get dumped over the fucking phone. The fucking coward. And his reasons were I made his life hell, I was self centered, and he needed to be single. Ummm...WHAT THE FUCK!?! We stopped going on dates, he would hardly tell anyone he was dating me, and all he wanted to do was drink and fuck. And he called me self centered....if I was naked he didn't find my presence necessary. I'm over the guy...except for maybe wanting to shove him off a roof. But the fact is I've fallen in love with someone else and I'm having the vulnerablity and trust issues from hell thanks to the previous asshole mentioned. He knows about my ex. He even offered to go hurt him for me. But it's my skeleton in the closet and my issue I need to learn to deal with. I don't want to lose what might be the best thing that ever happened to me because of old wounds.

*hugs*

I know it's going to be hard to trust someone else again but I'm sure your new guy really cares for you. Dont let your ex get in the way of something special. If he is worth it he will understand you having trust issues and work through it with you. If you explain to him I'm sure he will understand. If not we can all kick his ass I really hope your new relationship goes well

We'll all come over and push your ex off the roof.

*hugs*

Thanks. *hugs* Can it be a very high roof?