Aww thankies!

Leia, that was extrememly beautiful! I loved it

new one from moi...

Our Memories

A thin wrist, a cold hand
On my face
Sweet words sorrounding me
Black and white, so defined
So clear where it would go

The shadows arise on the walls
Violently everything begins to turn
Around, and away from me
My biggest fear

You dare to recall our memories
Our memories...
But the sweet words
The sweet words you said
Dark light surrounds them
Suffocating me

Let the shadows embrace me
I can't move no more
The stars the shown so bright
So our memories
They are disappearing
Right before my eyes
You are moving on
Leaving me behind

Dreams won't pass
Even as I spiral down
I recall the sweet words
Your cold hands on my face
Our memories...

Kayleigh thats beautiful

You got a talent there

Thanks Kellie!!!

Forgive Me

Fogive me, I'm still trying
To pick up the pieces
That he left behind
I don't mean to impose
Not on your happy little world
No

Forgive me, I'm still trying
To understand why he walked away
I don't mean to bother
Not to intrude
No

But I've got to wonder
Why would you tell me
That any hope was gone
That you had gone back
And left me standing alone too?

Forgive me, I'm still trying
To hold back all the tears
That I really should be crying
To take the breaths
That I should be breathing

Well I should have known
It's really my fault
I should've have know

But please forgive, I'm still trying
To pick all the pieces
That you stepped upon
I know it wasn't
Your direction intention
To make me forgot about
Believing in love again

Here's what I got...from what I was feeling...


The sun bright in the sky above
In you rush, without a thought
Later on, you know, the sky is dark
Don’t feign surprise
Don’t you know that is the natural order of things?
And so you walk through the night
Head down, for safe measures

The blue dome wears cotton balls
The emerald leaves frame the day
Behind them who know what lurks
In your rush, never look back
A wet wind hits you
As you drag yourself out
Don’t say you didn’t see it coming

Up above every shade of grey
Curses you say, threaten the world
Through the rain, you rush
Toward that place, that safe environment
Closed reads the door
Also grey are the steps
Why is it always raining?
You ask

The worms poke their heads free
Flowers are everything the sky isn’t
The dirt smells fresh as a bakery at dawn
Deeper the grass dives into the green pool
And you wonder why you can’t go inside
So the sky keeps crying
Your sulking is its dance partner

The next day, light prevails
Puddles shine, birds chirp
And here you curse again
For surely closed it can’t be twice
And as you rush
The sun laughs

love it Fork Ninja
here is one my friend and i wrote

Faded

I’m back on the floor again,
Didn’t know how it came to this.
Didn’t know how it became that way,
But I guess that just the way it is.

Had to get rid of all the sorrow in my veins,
Didn’t know how to get rid of the pain.
How much longer can I hold on to this?
My mind is tired and it wants to quit.

Little by little the happiness fades,
Replaced by something more darker.
Everything is painted in a shade of gray,
Depression is taking over.

A plastic smile on my face,
Pretending that I’m okay.
While deep inside I hide the pain,
The truth can’t be regained.

Unseen by this world,
I now want to be heard.
Please rid of this sorrow.
I fade away,
Cold and astray.

Find me,
Before the pain takes it all away.
Heal me,
Before these wound I cease to bear.
Save me,
I need your care.

Gone for good,
Is this how it should be?
How I die?
By just fading away.

-Kitty and Boo-Boo-

On Your Own

Sinking deeper into your own guilt
Trying to wipe the grime of your filth
Your life is now buried in ****
With everything I ignore you
Not listening to you one bit

The hate in your veins
The power in your brain
Only greed and shame
Gives you away

You hide now, behind your pride
Covering up with all your lies
Your words are like scars
Etched into my mind so hard

Death means nothing to you
I’m better off without you
As your existence brings me down

Now trying to get back
What you always wanted
But fear still grips you
You’re haunted
Everyone’s ditching you
Hating you more

You got back what you’ve done
Never getting back what you’ve won
You’ll pay for the sin
You melt under the sun
No one to heal you
Not one

**** happens
In result of what you’ve done
It’s what you get of what you had become

Start over, it’s better
Changing is no big deal
This is the difference of what is real.

Stef I love them

*hugs*

thanks kellie

My WT I Remember Poem


I remember someone asked the teacher
If she ever heard of the band Within Temptation
And I thought “Sounds interesting…I’ll have to look them up on Youtube”
I don’t remember which song I heard first
As much as I wish I did
But Mother Earth was my first album
That was two years ago

I remember listening to the Mother Earth songs while playing Final Fantasy 12
Then haunted by the memoires of my days in grade school
And fearing these songs were dragging up thoughts
Of my lashing out in defense of my insecurities
But still I found comfort in those lyrics
In the belief that I was past that rage
“Never-Ending Story” was the first song I loved
Because I am sometimes beautiful, sometimes insane

I remember realizing WT had other albums
And my initial fear of the music video for “Ice Queen”
The bridge of “Angels” was ground shattering
I rewound my mp3 player to hear it over and over
I made so many connections between WT and my favorite fictional characters
Like Shion and KOS-MOS and “Our Farwell”
And Allen with “Stand My Ground”

I remember thinking there was something special about “Pale”
But couldn’t quite grasp it
Oh yeah, the bridge that would one day mean the world to me
I sat on my computer late into the night
Contemplating and writing
There was the story about Allen and chaos inspired by “In Perfect Harmony”
And Shion and chaos’ moment of love set to “Pale”
“Somewhere” and “The Swan Song” were soothing
Though I’m sure they feed the longing inside

I remember The Heart of Everything was my jogging album
“Final Destination” brought comfort to me
When swim meets had me in a tizzy
I wrote the bridge of “Pale” on the first page of that notebook
Basking in the hot sun, content inside
But appearing mournful to those around me

I remember the first time I heard “Say My Name”
I knew I would love it
That it would be amongst my favorites
And its beauty did captivate me
Along with exciting once again the ever present longing
On that trip through South Dakota
I listened to it many times
“Overcome” too
Joy! There was a song about overcoming

I remember my hopes of seeing WT live
The excitement of thinking something that wonderful could happen
Back then I loved the songs
But I do recall finding Sharon slightly creepy
I touched her hand though
On a blissful night
I’d use to gauge my enthusiasm for months to come
Surely I couldn’t have had any more fun
But I know now that is far from true
I look forward to the time I can cheer truly for WT

I remember sitting in the car telling my friend how even I didn’t always listen to WT
Maybe I should have
Maybe I wouldn’t have fallen so hard
But then WT couldn’t have had the chance to pull me up
Twas a while before I learned that though
What brought me to my obsession?
I cannot now know
But I was drawn to Sharon
And in the weeks of June, I found myself listening
To every song, every day

I remember stumbling upon the forum
Where I soaked up all the WTness
And eventually joined the fray
Suddenly I found something in songs I rarely listened to in the past
Then there was “The Last Time”
That one needs to be eternally quoted for truth
And it goes to show, WT always comes up with something to push me along
I wanted to grasp its meaning
But I could not
Not then

I remember “freaking out” at Frozen
The music video I could not watch all the way through
He once asked if I liked that song
Pure irony there
“Freaking out” was a common theme
And there was only so much blasting ‘The Howling” could fix
I watched “Frozen” to cry
To bring myself to that epiphany
I do not know my exact line of thought
But I swore to thaw the ice

I remember telling the nurse about “Frozen”
And begging to keep my mp3 player so I could hide behind WT
But where I had to go
I could not take it
Thus I knew WT was a part of me
For I thought only of “Stand My Ground” and “Overcome”
As I faced the inevitable

I remember listening to WT the next chance I got
And explaining to mum about “Frozen”
And finally not being embarrassed to play WT in the car
And singing along
Nothing was wrong in a world with Sharon
But I would not listen
When I was thinking helplessly
I could not
I didn’t want to hear the truth

I remember loving the epicness of “Stand My Ground”
Such epicness deserved a story
So like a good fan
I wrote one
It was the longest piece I ever finished
And in it I grasped something
My love for WT was tangible
Shiny with metaphors

I remember how I cried when hearing the bridge of “Pale”
After my friend said she- they- were the angels that called my name
Well I was the one who quoted “Pale”
And I knew WT had made “My heart a better place”
I could stop running
Since there was a way
“Pale” was right
It is “All my state of mind”
And “In the end, it was worthwhile”
That pain has faded away
I think it is- will be- alright

I remember listening to ‘The Last Time” again
And understanding
That “Life is the choices we make”
I live by that now
I live protected by the armor
Within Temptation crafted
Sure bad stuff happened while I wore my WT shirts
But I believe so much in those lyrics
I fall asleep snuggling amongst my love for WT

I remember declaring Sharon den Adel my hero
For she is perfection to me
Her words freed me
And her passion gave me hope
For my own
Her love is what sings to me
Her sorrow rips me raw
And so I heal
In a way that leaves no scars
I thank WT so much
For it filled that void
So I could be whole

I remember that countdown to Black Symphony
The defining days of my life
I don’t like Sharon’s hair curly
But I love the sound of that orchestra
And Sharon finally got to take her rightful throne
Nothing could be overdone
Since WT rules my world
I still haven’t celebrated yet
Received the reward for my wait

As I move forward, I remember Within Temptation is more than a band
Tis a companion, a fire on a cold night, a lighthouse in a storm
I smile now and cry
At the humor, that “Frozen” is what unfroze me
And I dance freely
Feeling that excitement
I tasted at WT’s concert
I walk the road those lyrics paved
And sing along because I can
So I “Stand My Ground”
That Within Temptation is All I Need

OMGGLOMPZ0RZ!!!!!!!!!!

That's my new favorite poem

EVER.

WOW! I got goosebumps from that poem

I love it.

wow just perfect

Thanks guys

Random poem I wrote in my sorrow...

On that night
Surrounded by the waves of fire flies
I wished only
For the ability
To fight

So now I sail
On my stormy sea
Singing to the crashing water
Praying it will bring peace
Still terrified of drowning

I didn’t want
To bleed any longer
But pain seeps
Consumes me and
Creates oceans between me and you

Am I drifting away?
Way can I not hold on?
To what I know
Is true
I know the beauty of the calm sea

For the wonders of serenity
Sleep within me
The awe of sorrow
The captivation of this longing
And the comfort of love

That was really good, Amy! I love the emotion you put into it.

Amy thats amazing.

Anyone notice anything speical about this one?

Will I ever truly avoid the trap?
Into the cold, I cast my heart and mind
Time after time, I fan the flames of sorrow
Hopeless I make myself feel
In actuality, I know I am so much stronger
Nothing can destroy me; I survived both fire and ice

Terrible is the pain when I think again I failed
Empty of anything but my past, am I really?
Meaning I'll never not be haunted
Please, past just go away
Truly, there is a better way out
Actually I thought I was at peace with me
Tell me why the insecurities still stab
It's my choice, I know
Over I can step and ignore the ghosts
Near me I can hold the good and focus on the freedom

WITHIN TEMPTATION XD

Wow Amy you're really talented

Ahoy! I remembered a letter I wrote to myself in early July at a time when I was terrified by reality of my choice because I was pretty sure my mind was going to get destroyed and I wanted to have something to remember me by. Reading this letter seriously made me love myself so much<3 Though this is maddeningly personal, it also leaves me with a very strong pride, which is why I want to share it

Dear Amy,
It is important to remember as we move forward all the experiences that we have been through. It has not all been bad and that is what we must rely on. The good that sleeps within must overcome the darkness that seeped through. At the end of this conflict lies freedom and on that path we must now step. What lies beyond this morning is in your hands, though it may seem the leap of faith hands the keys to another…perhaps all else is yours to chose even more so than any other decision. We shall no longer be controlled by the demons of the past.

With this eventual reality comes an indescribable responsibility. Hiding away shall no longer be an option. You must face it (it being everything) head on from now on. But fear not. I have great faith in your will. Look at all you’ve done despite the constant torment. And now imagine what you can do without it. That is not meant as a threat, but an expectation. When you no longer cannot bear “you,” you will want to set goals. That’s what you work toward as I do freedom now. Where we go from here lies solely on your choices, but they are not hard choices not when you can feel your heart so strongly. When you come to stare this in the eyes, may your words be those of passion and not uncertainty because for certain once you leave the general only true interest and desire will carry you.
I know you act now very much in a conditioned manor. You respond to those prying hands- eyes- by dissociating with that girl. But the world must see that girl. That girl is you and in order to be truly you, you must embrace her and the horror of what has been done. Open your eyes and heart to her. She has been waiting longer than you can ever know. You’ve always wanted to get away…but the fission happened in you and you know you love fusion.

Oh Amy, I had so much I wanted to tell you…But I could never talk to you directly. You were a stigma in my life. That girl. The plague. The one who no one wants around, So long I’ve felt isolated like I’m terribly different and weird beyond belief. I’ve wanted the painful scratching to stop for so long. I’ve wanted it to end so much. I’ve sought to destroy you. But now I know the darkness that carries. So now in this moment, I’m poised to strike at that darkness. We will fight as one. I will not fight you.

One thing I can say clearly though is these two words: I’m sorry. I’m sorry for leaving you in fear and silence. Don’t hate me for it. I had no choice then…We needed to live and that’s why I’m here now. We will overcome. I’m sorry for cutting you- punishing you for crimes you didn’t really commit or that weren’t really in your control. I hated the person who did those things. That’s why I did it…I’m sorry I locked you away, but I didn’t trust you. I’m sorry I sat in the freezer for so long. I’m sorry I never realized the pain sooner. I thought I was okay. I thought I could get past it. Maybe could…but we couldn’t…not coming out whole anyway. I’ll start walking or writing or laughing and when I am overtaken by the love, I will see you and we’ll smile and merge like in “Running Up That Hill”s MV. We’ll soar bodily then. Oh and if when you are whole you want to forget about the sorrow and everything associated with it, that’s okay. You have my permission to never play another rpg, listen to another WT song or squeal about another kitchen appliance. I’m fine with that as long as we are happy and whole. I’m trusting that won’t happen though…

One last thing I must apologize for: I’m breaking the promise I made you. I said I’d never let those secrets go. I swore it was only my burden. Sorry ‘bout that. If it’s a problem to break a promise, let it be this one. That way you’ll never need to really break another one. Isn’t that what caused you this tension in the first place? I’m letting you use this excuse one last time: It’s not your fault. You were not in control of your actions due to that internal conflict. Once you’re free that’s down the drain…
Don’t freak though. We want to succeed. To work hard, to learn, to soar…so we’ll make it. It’s that simple.

Now as we face this uncertainty, I ask you to throw down the weapons. If we crash it’ll be into a safe place. I forgive you for all that’s been done- even those things I thought unconnected or am unaware of. Let us hug and make up. I cannot do this alone. I cannot save you alone. Still I’ll be the one who saves you.
Your Friend,
Amy

Wow. That is really inspirational I'm glad it made you love yourself as we all love you