Writers

On Your Own

Sinking deeper into your own guilt
Trying to wipe the grime of your filth
Your life is now buried in ****
With everything I ignore you
Not listening to you one bit

The hate in your veins
The power in your brain
Only greed and shame
Gives you away

You hide now, behind your pride
Covering up with all your lies
Your words are like scars
Etched into my mind so hard

Death means nothing to you
I’m better off without you
As your existence brings me down

Now trying to get back
What you always wanted
But fear still grips you
You’re haunted
Everyone’s ditching you
Hating you more

You got back what you’ve done
Never getting back what you’ve won
You’ll pay for the sin
You melt under the sun
No one to heal you
Not one

**** happens
In result of what you’ve done
It’s what you get of what you had become

Start over, it’s better
Changing is no big deal
This is the difference of what is real.

Stef I love them

*hugs*

thanks kellie

My WT I Remember Poem


I remember someone asked the teacher
If she ever heard of the band Within Temptation
And I thought “Sounds interesting…I’ll have to look them up on Youtube”
I don’t remember which song I heard first
As much as I wish I did
But Mother Earth was my first album
That was two years ago

I remember listening to the Mother Earth songs while playing Final Fantasy 12
Then haunted by the memoires of my days in grade school
And fearing these songs were dragging up thoughts
Of my lashing out in defense of my insecurities
But still I found comfort in those lyrics
In the belief that I was past that rage
“Never-Ending Story” was the first song I loved
Because I am sometimes beautiful, sometimes insane

I remember realizing WT had other albums
And my initial fear of the music video for “Ice Queen”
The bridge of “Angels” was ground shattering
I rewound my mp3 player to hear it over and over
I made so many connections between WT and my favorite fictional characters
Like Shion and KOS-MOS and “Our Farwell”
And Allen with “Stand My Ground”

I remember thinking there was something special about “Pale”
But couldn’t quite grasp it
Oh yeah, the bridge that would one day mean the world to me
I sat on my computer late into the night
Contemplating and writing
There was the story about Allen and chaos inspired by “In Perfect Harmony”
And Shion and chaos’ moment of love set to “Pale”
“Somewhere” and “The Swan Song” were soothing
Though I’m sure they feed the longing inside

I remember The Heart of Everything was my jogging album
“Final Destination” brought comfort to me
When swim meets had me in a tizzy
I wrote the bridge of “Pale” on the first page of that notebook
Basking in the hot sun, content inside
But appearing mournful to those around me

I remember the first time I heard “Say My Name”
I knew I would love it
That it would be amongst my favorites
And its beauty did captivate me
Along with exciting once again the ever present longing
On that trip through South Dakota
I listened to it many times
“Overcome” too
Joy! There was a song about overcoming

I remember my hopes of seeing WT live
The excitement of thinking something that wonderful could happen
Back then I loved the songs
But I do recall finding Sharon slightly creepy
I touched her hand though
On a blissful night
I’d use to gauge my enthusiasm for months to come
Surely I couldn’t have had any more fun
But I know now that is far from true
I look forward to the time I can cheer truly for WT

I remember sitting in the car telling my friend how even I didn’t always listen to WT
Maybe I should have
Maybe I wouldn’t have fallen so hard
But then WT couldn’t have had the chance to pull me up
Twas a while before I learned that though
What brought me to my obsession?
I cannot now know
But I was drawn to Sharon
And in the weeks of June, I found myself listening
To every song, every day

I remember stumbling upon the forum
Where I soaked up all the WTness
And eventually joined the fray
Suddenly I found something in songs I rarely listened to in the past
Then there was “The Last Time”
That one needs to be eternally quoted for truth
And it goes to show, WT always comes up with something to push me along
I wanted to grasp its meaning
But I could not
Not then

I remember “freaking out” at Frozen
The music video I could not watch all the way through
He once asked if I liked that song
Pure irony there
“Freaking out” was a common theme
And there was only so much blasting ‘The Howling” could fix
I watched “Frozen” to cry
To bring myself to that epiphany
I do not know my exact line of thought
But I swore to thaw the ice

I remember telling the nurse about “Frozen”
And begging to keep my mp3 player so I could hide behind WT
But where I had to go
I could not take it
Thus I knew WT was a part of me
For I thought only of “Stand My Ground” and “Overcome”
As I faced the inevitable

I remember listening to WT the next chance I got
And explaining to mum about “Frozen”
And finally not being embarrassed to play WT in the car
And singing along
Nothing was wrong in a world with Sharon
But I would not listen
When I was thinking helplessly
I could not
I didn’t want to hear the truth

I remember loving the epicness of “Stand My Ground”
Such epicness deserved a story
So like a good fan
I wrote one
It was the longest piece I ever finished
And in it I grasped something
My love for WT was tangible
Shiny with metaphors

I remember how I cried when hearing the bridge of “Pale”
After my friend said she- they- were the angels that called my name
Well I was the one who quoted “Pale”
And I knew WT had made “My heart a better place”
I could stop running
Since there was a way
“Pale” was right
It is “All my state of mind”
And “In the end, it was worthwhile”
That pain has faded away
I think it is- will be- alright

I remember listening to ‘The Last Time” again
And understanding
That “Life is the choices we make”
I live by that now
I live protected by the armor
Within Temptation crafted
Sure bad stuff happened while I wore my WT shirts
But I believe so much in those lyrics
I fall asleep snuggling amongst my love for WT

I remember declaring Sharon den Adel my hero
For she is perfection to me
Her words freed me
And her passion gave me hope
For my own
Her love is what sings to me
Her sorrow rips me raw
And so I heal
In a way that leaves no scars
I thank WT so much
For it filled that void
So I could be whole

I remember that countdown to Black Symphony
The defining days of my life
I don’t like Sharon’s hair curly
But I love the sound of that orchestra
And Sharon finally got to take her rightful throne
Nothing could be overdone
Since WT rules my world
I still haven’t celebrated yet
Received the reward for my wait

As I move forward, I remember Within Temptation is more than a band
Tis a companion, a fire on a cold night, a lighthouse in a storm
I smile now and cry
At the humor, that “Frozen” is what unfroze me
And I dance freely
Feeling that excitement
I tasted at WT’s concert
I walk the road those lyrics paved
And sing along because I can
So I “Stand My Ground”
That Within Temptation is All I Need

OMGGLOMPZ0RZ!!!!!!!!!!

That's my new favorite poem

EVER.

WOW! I got goosebumps from that poem

I love it.

wow just perfect

Thanks guys

Random poem I wrote in my sorrow...

On that night
Surrounded by the waves of fire flies
I wished only
For the ability
To fight

So now I sail
On my stormy sea
Singing to the crashing water
Praying it will bring peace
Still terrified of drowning

I didn’t want
To bleed any longer
But pain seeps
Consumes me and
Creates oceans between me and you

Am I drifting away?
Way can I not hold on?
To what I know
Is true
I know the beauty of the calm sea

For the wonders of serenity
Sleep within me
The awe of sorrow
The captivation of this longing
And the comfort of love

That was really good, Amy! I love the emotion you put into it.

Amy thats amazing.

Anyone notice anything speical about this one?

Will I ever truly avoid the trap?
Into the cold, I cast my heart and mind
Time after time, I fan the flames of sorrow
Hopeless I make myself feel
In actuality, I know I am so much stronger
Nothing can destroy me; I survived both fire and ice

Terrible is the pain when I think again I failed
Empty of anything but my past, am I really?
Meaning I'll never not be haunted
Please, past just go away
Truly, there is a better way out
Actually I thought I was at peace with me
Tell me why the insecurities still stab
It's my choice, I know
Over I can step and ignore the ghosts
Near me I can hold the good and focus on the freedom

WITHIN TEMPTATION XD

Wow Amy you're really talented

Ahoy! I remembered a letter I wrote to myself in early July at a time when I was terrified by reality of my choice because I was pretty sure my mind was going to get destroyed and I wanted to have something to remember me by. Reading this letter seriously made me love myself so much<3 Though this is maddeningly personal, it also leaves me with a very strong pride, which is why I want to share it

Dear Amy,
It is important to remember as we move forward all the experiences that we have been through. It has not all been bad and that is what we must rely on. The good that sleeps within must overcome the darkness that seeped through. At the end of this conflict lies freedom and on that path we must now step. What lies beyond this morning is in your hands, though it may seem the leap of faith hands the keys to another…perhaps all else is yours to chose even more so than any other decision. We shall no longer be controlled by the demons of the past.

With this eventual reality comes an indescribable responsibility. Hiding away shall no longer be an option. You must face it (it being everything) head on from now on. But fear not. I have great faith in your will. Look at all you’ve done despite the constant torment. And now imagine what you can do without it. That is not meant as a threat, but an expectation. When you no longer cannot bear “you,” you will want to set goals. That’s what you work toward as I do freedom now. Where we go from here lies solely on your choices, but they are not hard choices not when you can feel your heart so strongly. When you come to stare this in the eyes, may your words be those of passion and not uncertainty because for certain once you leave the general only true interest and desire will carry you.
I know you act now very much in a conditioned manor. You respond to those prying hands- eyes- by dissociating with that girl. But the world must see that girl. That girl is you and in order to be truly you, you must embrace her and the horror of what has been done. Open your eyes and heart to her. She has been waiting longer than you can ever know. You’ve always wanted to get away…but the fission happened in you and you know you love fusion.

Oh Amy, I had so much I wanted to tell you…But I could never talk to you directly. You were a stigma in my life. That girl. The plague. The one who no one wants around, So long I’ve felt isolated like I’m terribly different and weird beyond belief. I’ve wanted the painful scratching to stop for so long. I’ve wanted it to end so much. I’ve sought to destroy you. But now I know the darkness that carries. So now in this moment, I’m poised to strike at that darkness. We will fight as one. I will not fight you.

One thing I can say clearly though is these two words: I’m sorry. I’m sorry for leaving you in fear and silence. Don’t hate me for it. I had no choice then…We needed to live and that’s why I’m here now. We will overcome. I’m sorry for cutting you- punishing you for crimes you didn’t really commit or that weren’t really in your control. I hated the person who did those things. That’s why I did it…I’m sorry I locked you away, but I didn’t trust you. I’m sorry I sat in the freezer for so long. I’m sorry I never realized the pain sooner. I thought I was okay. I thought I could get past it. Maybe could…but we couldn’t…not coming out whole anyway. I’ll start walking or writing or laughing and when I am overtaken by the love, I will see you and we’ll smile and merge like in “Running Up That Hill”s MV. We’ll soar bodily then. Oh and if when you are whole you want to forget about the sorrow and everything associated with it, that’s okay. You have my permission to never play another rpg, listen to another WT song or squeal about another kitchen appliance. I’m fine with that as long as we are happy and whole. I’m trusting that won’t happen though…

One last thing I must apologize for: I’m breaking the promise I made you. I said I’d never let those secrets go. I swore it was only my burden. Sorry ‘bout that. If it’s a problem to break a promise, let it be this one. That way you’ll never need to really break another one. Isn’t that what caused you this tension in the first place? I’m letting you use this excuse one last time: It’s not your fault. You were not in control of your actions due to that internal conflict. Once you’re free that’s down the drain…
Don’t freak though. We want to succeed. To work hard, to learn, to soar…so we’ll make it. It’s that simple.

Now as we face this uncertainty, I ask you to throw down the weapons. If we crash it’ll be into a safe place. I forgive you for all that’s been done- even those things I thought unconnected or am unaware of. Let us hug and make up. I cannot do this alone. I cannot save you alone. Still I’ll be the one who saves you.
Your Friend,
Amy

Wow. That is really inspirational I'm glad it made you love yourself as we all love you

OMG there are such AWESOME things on here! I'm almost cringing to put my own.

Confusion:
The confusion. The delusion.
You can't pretend any longer.
You lie to me, you cry to me
You leave this life to wander

You say you're lost
We've hurt you so
But you just need attention
This game you play
These words you say
You live in your own demension

I lie for you
Live for you
You lie right back, so cruel
You don't care
You never have
How could I play your fool?

You'll pay, one day
I swear you will
You'll die a lonely death
You'll feel unloved
We'll have had enough
There will be no one left

You'll beg for forgivness
Mercy, please?
But I'll stare down so cold
I've forgotten you
So long ago
Those games you played got old.



IT's for you:
It's for you, these tears i've cried
It's for you, my sleepless nights
It's for you, I have to lie
It's thanks to you, I'm not alright

It's for you, all my hurt
It for you, for what it's worth
It's for you, of that I'm sure


Thanks to you, at night I cry
Thanks to you, I cannot fly
Thanks to you, I want to die

Because of you, I cannot dream
Because of you, I wake with screams
Because of you, I don't believe
All because you had to leave

Yet I love you in all your lies
I love you in your disguise
I loved you until you died
And I'll love you for all of time


Lashes:
I see fragments of the world under my lashes
I don't dare look it full in the eyes
I lie to myself, hide nder the covers
Under this veil I keep as disguise.
I wish everyone would just fade away
Just for a moment so I can breathe

*~*~*~*~*~*

Have you ever seen me?
You see the shattered pieces
I temporarily glue together
I appear to be okay
I look like I am whole

*~*~*~*~*~*

Inside I'm screaming out
Protesting the treatment I recieve
You don't understand
You could never

*~*~*~*~*

How could you ever know what its like?
To see what I see behind these hazel eyes
Under these lowered lashes
Through this hurting soul

*~*~*~*~*

I keep these tears bottled inside
Rage chained on broken pride
I have to hide this all
All I am, all I was
You would never be able to comprehend me
It's too much
All I've done
Who I've hurt

*~*~*~*

Would you be able to accept me?
You say you could
But you could never
I'd only hurt you
I chain myself
To keep from hurting anyone
I lower my lashes
Cover my tracks
My secret is hidden
The world is black.


All I am:
It's too vain to describe

these feelings I hide

I don't want to lock you away

But I never want you hurt

You're all I'm worth

All I am

I'll fall for you

Take my hand

I'll find a way

To push aside

this hurt I carry

these tears I hide

I'll let you in

and hold on while I can

Because you are so much

You're all I am


I'll:
You tell me you're crying
You tell me you're sad
Life's so unfair
But life's all you have
I tell you I love you
I tell you I'm here
I promise to hug you
And treasue your tears
But I'm so far away
The distance is much
But still in our minds
We can feel each other's touch
Close your eyes
Take a deep breath
I'm right beside you
I'm all you have left
I swear that I love you
If I love nothing else.
You can always talk to me
I'll get you through your hell
At night dream of me
In the day think of me
When you cry, remember me
Because I'm right there
I love you so much
I just can't find the words
To make you understand
And heal your hurt
To wrap you in my arms
And comfort you again
To make you understand
I'm more than a friend
And I'll tell you I love you
I'll tell you I'm there
I'll tell you to talk to me
When life isn't fair
And I'll embrace you once more
Just so you're sure
I'll give you my everything
Something to live for.
And it doesent matter what they say
Who cares about their hate
ITs just me and you
Thats all that matters
Ignore the pieces of your heart
They attempted to shatter
Because your heart is mine
And my heart is yours
And I'll protect you.
They don't know what they're throwing away
They don't know the real you
But I see inside your heart
I see the truth.
and you're someone so special
No one can be compared
Inside you is love
That else where is rare
It doesen't matter what they say
They don't know who you should be
So ignore all their hurtful things
And just think of me
Remember I love you
Remember I'm here
Remember you're more
Than what they say you should be.





I have so many more.. but.. ehh..

i love them all....

wonder


i keep on thinking whats the reason
why all these lies?
why i cry?

i keep on wondering
i keep on trying
to find the answer deep inside

nothing seem right
i fear the night
this war i cant fight

all u have done to me
all the pain within i cant see
why you did this to me?

i need to be free from this
within this soul i have to reach
find whats missing in me

one day i will be free
when?? i keep on wondering

Rynne I love them all

Stef I love yours too

<3 Nice work!

Okay, there is a rather amusing story behind this poem. Once I was walking and listening to "Nemo" and I thought "omg this song really describes what I recently went through" So of course I had to think it through and over turn EVERY rock It's loads of fun<3

Oh and as a result, I'm pretty sure I can prove WT pwns NW.

And without is NOT the opposite of within. Think about it...If my toaster burnt my bread, I would be without breakfast, but if my toaster worked right, I would not be within said bread.

Like the haze that
Hovers above the slick grass
My memories
This dream
The smile and the thumbs up
I now give my past

I’ve been waiting so long
To understand
Why I couldn’t bring a flashlight
On the dark road I trekked
I walked the long road
To save myself

My exacts words
“I am going to die”
To live this out
I destroyed me
Accepting the loss of my heart
I carried on without my dreams

The scariest thing
To look on with no emotions
The saddest truth
The empty look in your eyes
As I passed you
Silence pulsed through my veins

From nothing
Anything is possible
Always in my heart the memory of
That excitement
Everyday reality
Drowned me in its raging river

Without a heart
Without an escape route
Without anyone to save me
Without any clear answers
Without the comfort
Without that excitement

Where I was
The goal
To gather the evidence
I’d laugh again
Even if I couldn’t think
So many severed ties

All the explanations
Truths I found
None brought me home
But were a drop
In my ocean
Fibers of the lost lifeline

Broken and unable
To not walk alone
All the good in me
Dissolved in the murky depths
Swallowed by my crime
I could go no further

Those red lines
Angry bolts across the black sky
Tearing asunder all I built
My hopes shattered
My desires only imagined
The last battle in the war that brought me there

Many times I
Scratched the surface
Never itching the irritated spot
Because behind the madness
It hid
As I hid in the everyday

Still I made it through
Without the crazy emotional understanding
I cherish
But only with
Rudimentary senses
Unsure of right or wrong

The more I said I wanted away
The closer I came
It was throwing stones
At me
That stupid truth
The heart of my eternal war

One day, I realized
That’s truly “the heart of everything”
And to be free
I had to stab
My sword
Right through it

But first
I had to trust
My heart was good
The pieces I gathered
Put in the places
I ordained

I saw what I wanted
I lived what I didn’t want
I rejected me
I would only accept
A future in which
This wasn’t the case

My everything the sword
That slashed the darkness
Of my whole life
Tears of hope fell
I danced
With my dreams

The clarity
That comes
At dawn
The name called
To find your love
The longed for embrace

Within my heart
The land of endless beauty
All I love
The sea, the sky, the warmth
The intrigue of longing
And the quest to paint this for all to see

Within me
The power of creation
My beloved name
The cause I am
The insanity
I love

Within my dreams
Hope
A smile
Tingling with excitement
Frolicking with joy
Reality

It is impossible to be without
When you are within
My passion
Endless amusement
My strength
A promise

I love it Amy! You said "the heart of everything"!!!!

New one from me

Photograph

I fall and fall and fall
I know in the end it's all in vain
But in my heart I know there's no denying
Just how much I need to be there with you

I love you too much, just from the words you say
Oh, I know one day it all will change again
Some day I'm going to make you see
That you are my hero

I've got to thank you for the moments
All the moments you waste on me
I know that I don't deserve all the time
You let me take away

It's been too long, I'm gripping on your voice
Trying to remember the little smiles I heard
And oh, I grasp too tightly on every little message
You've ever sent to me

I want you to see, need you to know
You are the reason that I've found
To watch these seasons come and go
And take these little steps
I just want you to know now

Oh... OMG.... I'm literally crying right now. I can relate to that one so much....... *hugs* That's amazing.

Oh. Wow, thank so much.

You're really an amazing writter.

*huggles kayleigh* I concur with above statement

I think I write poems cuz I'm afriad to invest the effort and emotion into a story. Bad self

The tight rope I walk
Above the river of alligators and angry demons
There’s a metaphor for it too
A comparison trapped between imagery
All these complexities
Atop the nothing that is my foundation
What a miracle I still stand

My world, I created
There can be no
Comparing when it comes down
To my life
No simple explanation
No justification needed
I walk the road I guess
I was made to

Am I a ridiculous beggar?
Clad in the patchwork clothes
Of a million unreal obsessions
Waiting for the cold to tear it apart
I hear only the howling
Somehow I rather like being a jester
That lone tree captured so many times
My roots know the truth
So many dreams swim about
My weapon isn’t real
My means not always plausible
The thought though
Real as the songs I live by
I can leave that happy place
Of metaphors and personification
My hopes, dreams and wishes
Just a belief, but tested by fire and ice

Kayleigh and Amy they are amazing You both are really talented